Nanar

my eyes were glazed. I really felt lost myself and did not know was where. I need a tight grip and make sure that everything will be fine. I might be able to just forget about any kind of events I have experienced. but "feeling" is something that will remain stored in the deepest parts of our hearts. like the taste of sweet, bitter, tasteless, sick, love, and all kinds of "sense", we'll never forget until the end of our age.

mémoire

I travel the road long enough. everything that I had left behind me might be lost over time. but there's one thing I will never forget. something which we are familiar with: feeling.

memories, events, and the time that remains will not be defeated by a sense that is stored in our hearts.

I do not know what's on my mind today. but one thing is for sure, I feel relieved and able to breathe normally because everything is going well.someday I make sure that all will be saved and become a sweet gift in my old age, a parcel sense that I will never forget.

p.s. I love You

Brother

I Miss You

I Miss You So Much

i miss you






*GOD, please don't keep me away from the man that I love: my dad and my love...

Dichotomy

well, I think this is not the time to think so. but I could not resist the feeling to always think about it every time. I'm still loyal to the idea that ambiguous.

actually it's not a complicated thing. It is a sure thing for me instead. sometimes when I realize it would come one day to me, I feel happy. but on the other hand I felt that something was punching my heart until I had time to think, "if our heart can really fall? * as often people say if they receive good news or bad news."

# If it can be so, I think the heart was not consistent. when in fact he would fall? when sad or happy? weird ..

I seem more bizarre than the "heart". I even feel sad and happy at one time. (Then later I thought: what am I just weird as "the heart"?)

happy and sad always comes at the same time when I think about it. I felt as if I split into two parts and it makes me confused. but never mind, it's not interesting to contemplate a bid.

С Днем Рождения

today is a new day for me. there are a lot of hope that must be manifested in my new age. everything that has happened in my past should be made as a valuable experience. on my birthday, I just hope that there will be change for the better in my life. so, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASISKA ...
=)

Anxiousness

I never expected to be born in deprived circumstances or conditions that are full of glory. I accept myself what it is and I do not have excessive expectations on my life. I'm just trying to live my life as it is and always trying to change the course of my life which I thought was not good. all that I do is not just for myself because I'm sick when there is a presumption that I was selfish. maybe I'm not thinking about what other people say to me, but I was disturbed when my family who said that.

Every time I try to go ahead and move, I was pulled back with a variety of "burden" in my leg. when I can let it go, suddenly there was something else that appears. always ..

I just want to make myself comfortable with this situation. I always dream to get away from this situation. I do not want to destroy the dream itself. if the dream that I pack began to fade and no longer emitting light, I might have completely disappeared and no longer recognize anything even myself.

Diskoneksi

Apa yang akan terjadi bila kita mengalami sebuah diskoneksi dalam suatu relasi?

bisa saja kalian memiliki jawaban yang berbeda-beda dan memiliki pandangan sendiri mengenai hal itu. tapi yang jelas, relasi tersebut akan mengalami sebuah gangguan. gangguan itulah yang kemudian akan membuat relasi tersebut mengalami guncangan. besar apa kecil? tergantung seberapa besar diskoneksi baik secara fisik dan emosional yang terjadi.

berbicara mengenai diskoneksi emosional, banyak sekali contoh yang bisa kita ambil untuk dijadikan sebuah pelajaran. misalnya dalam hubungan dengan lawan jenis. terkadang relasi yang terjalin (meskipun itu sudah lama sekalipun) tak pernah bisa luput dari ancaman perpisahan. kita mungkin sadar bahwa suatu saat pasti akan berpisah, tidak tahu apakah perpisahan itu terjadi secara alami ataukah ada faktor dari individu itu sendiri yang menyebabkan perpisahan terjadi. namun yang mungkin bisa kita lakukan adalah dengan menjaga hubungan agar tidak mengalami diskoneksi, terutama diskoneksi emosional. tekadang seiring dengan berjalannya waktu, hubungan emosional itu bisa mengalami kemunduran menurut Saya. disaat itulah masalah yang kecil pun bisa membuat relasi yang sudah kita bangun bisa terputus.

sebuah diskoneksi tidak hanya bisa terjadi dalam hubungan dengan lawan jenis. setiap relasi yang terbentuk menurut Saya berpotensi mengalami sebuah diskoneksi. sekarang yang terpenting adalah bagaimana kita menjaga sebuah relasi agar tidak mengalami hal itu.

Taukah apa yang ada di pikiran Saya?
Saya takut. apa yang akan terjadi apabila nantinya terjadi diskoneksi antara Saya dengan Tuhan. Ya Tuhan, Saya mohon jangan. Saya percaya apapun yang terjadi Engkau akan tetap berada di samping Saya.

Bukan begitu?